A heavy heart

My heart has been weighed down and buffeted by the sin in the world, and the sin in me. In my past is a wonderful, fun and charismatic friend who left the state to pursue a life of immorality. A favorite talk show host of mine is living in that same lifestyle. I, like most people, have beloved relatives in deplorable situations that are the fault of no one but themselves. I see my own sin, my lack of vulnerability, the time and effort I spend in trying to cover up my hurts and disappointments with fake smiles. God had recently impressed on me the length of eternity. I hate to think of anyone, friend or foe, being in eternal damnation. This can only lead one to pray, to pour their bruised heart out before the Mercy seat of God and beg his mercy, pleading for myself and others.